You're playing and I'm at the sideline, my cheer's slowly fading.
Because I'm realising it's not all just the normal being busy, it's also a choice. A choice to be busy, a choice not to include me, a choice that has been pushing me more and more into the back.
I used to claw and roar at it, trying to fit in between but I'm out of energy. My choice to make an effort to get to spend as much of our free time together is over. It has been said many times before and I've never kept these intentions because I was afraid of losing our time together. Missed a lot of family activities, traditions because I was too busy trying to make time. Not anymore.
From now on I'll live my life, if you want in ask me, not sure if I can see you though. I'll see if I'm available. This time I won't jump with every sweet text asking me to come or every heart soaring phone call asking for a personal hug.
My free time = my free time!
Want in, search a spot if you can find one!